It has been 1 month now that he is not in my life anymore….
Even after being in a relationship I really don’t know what love is and trust me I don’t want to know anymore coz how much I know is good enough to give me the pain of loss of love. What exactly is love? Is it this addiction that makes a person crazy for the person he/ she is in love with? Does a person’s life just centre on that person only? How does he /she become the most important person in our lives? If he / she leave us why do we feel sad?
These questions make me mad each n every moment. I try telling myself every night before going to sleep that the next morning I will be different, happy and will not think about him, but…. I feel as if I have lost all the happiness in my life, even the power to smile. I am not able to find any reason to be happy.
When he was going away he said that, ‘I will never come back in your life’. Though I still call him but he ignores me the way we ignore any unwanted calls. How do I tell him I love him a lot? I fail to understand how can somebody love you so passionately at one time and ignore you at the other time? Was that love?
While writing this blog may be tears rolled down my eyes but it doesn’t really make a difference to the person who it is written for coz now I don’t even have the right to tell him what I feel for him. Every moment I ask god to relieve me of this pain called love coz now I don’t want to love , but somehow I feel I have never been in love more ….
